Sometimes You Just Gotta

A few weeks ago, I made my goal weight.  A few months ago, I was so freaking close.  Even being within 5lbs of my goal weight, I was am was struggling with demons.

What if I un-do all my hard work?

What if I gain everything back?

What if I have nothing to wear if I gain everything back?

The list goes on and on.  Truth is, I've been holding onto clothes I haven't been able to wear (right) since I had my oldest.  Thinking that one day I'd be able to wear them again and not feel like I was poured into them or feel like I was being cut off at the waist.

Guess what?  Everything I have been holding onto and afraid to let go of, is now ridiculously too big!  I had a pile in my closet floor of clothes that just didn't fit me right anymore.  I had an even bigger 'pile' hanging up.

I was afraid to let go.

But yesterday, I stood in my closet, looking at the many many pairs of jeans, pants, skirts and dresses.  Knowing that it was all too big.  Knowing that keeping these things was insane because I am not that girl anymore.  Knowing that regardless of what happens, I will not go back.

Sometimes you just gotta let go.

And I did.  I have a pile of 10+ pairs of jeans, 4 pairs of dress pants and a few dresses that will be donated/given away.  I don't need them anymore.

I won't even mention that now my closet is practically empty and I have a total of 4 pairs of jeans that fit.  Wait...My bad.

It doesn't matter!  Now I get to go shopping and buy things that fit!

Sometimes, you just gotta!